The Other Guy

She wonders why the days wont end
and where have the nights disappeared again.
She thinks about his pretty smile,
his absence that has left her fragile.

He looks out his window, disappointed again,
she wont come back and walk in the rain.
He looks at her picture and wonders why,
they didn't talk about this other guy.

She stares at the letters her inbox full,
the words mesmerizing, his love's pull.
And then she thinks about how it all went down,
wrestling with herself she leaves the town.

He waits for her reply for something to give,
maybe without her he would now have to live.
Of life in the coming days he didn't know,
maybe time in its grace would itself show.

The baby now left desolate somewhere unknown,
cries for someone to show him a home.
Where their one mistake will cost him his life,
could he still make it through this alive.

He wonders whether this some other way could be dealt,
the little guy and she happy he could have kept.
But society and they wouldn't have accepted,
in a way their fate long decided.

She sits alone in a car now crying,
what is the point of these emotions now hiding.
She rides back to the steps where the other guy lay,
reaching for him a prayer of forgiveness she prays.

He watches the sun sink deep into the sea,
wonders whether their love still can be.
He hurries past the crowds the people accusing,
society and their opinions in the closet left hanging.

James and Delilah hold lil Paul in their arms,
their anguish and fear now become calm.
For the first time lil Paul opens his brown eyes,
to see the world in true love shine.

Anhara's Song

And I look into the distance
I see her twinkling brow
The depth of a hundred seas
The waves of close sorrows
In the distance I find
A strength so profound
My heart it slows
For a moment she looks
At me and a wave of her sorrow passes on
In the distance of her being
I drown with that sorrow
She watches me quietly
With amusing eyes
Twinkling like the starry night
In her gaze once again I see
The depth of a hundred seas
Her sorrow slowly washes off
Leaving me emptier than before
The light heartedness is but just spaces
She filled up with the waves.
Into the distance again I see
Just spaces of me

Anhara's Song

And I look into the distance
I see her twinkling brow
The depth of a hundred seas
The waves of close sorrows
In the distance I find
A strength so profound
My heart it slows
For a moment she looks
At me and a wave of her sorrow passes on
In the distance of her being
I drown with that sorrow
She watches me quietly
With amusing eyes
Twinkling like the starry night
In her gaze once again I see
The depth of a hundred seas
Her sorrow slowly washes off
Leaving me emptier than before
The light heartedness is but just spaces
She filled up with the waves.
Into the distance again I see
Just spaces of me

Comfortable Silences

So we sit there
not talking about anything
watching the world pass by.

You look in my eyes and are not afraid
to make my pain your own
understanding the vulnerability you see in my broken soul

I tried a few times, to bear it all
within me inside
but not for Long

You come and you see
just sit there and hold me
my soul lets go

And at that very moment
i feel a release, a withdrawal deep within,
of sorrow from my soul

Sometimes words mask the pain,
the emotion inside
the true feelings very few can unhide

No need for a mask
or sugar coated superlatives
just room for our silences to slowly unwind

Sometimes a whole sentence
a description enormous
cannot capture the depth of your emotions inside

Just sitting in your company
listening to you breathe
i feel a calm, like, love's aura embracing me

Many may speak, eloquence and sense
sometimes what we need is just an understanding friend
to listen and touch, hold and comfort.

The greatest distance, they say, is the distance between two hearts
what when the destinations are broken?
the road laden with pain

What you give me, Friend
is a reason to believe
to face it all with ease

We have traveled the distances
marked our journeys with victory and slain
attacks of pain unspoken of

And now when i look deep into your eyes
all i see is joy and
companionship none can define.

Now as the day dawns
we sit there, satisfied and free,
comfortable in our silence

Dark Light

Stagnant thoughts of the mind on overdrive

Wondering whether spirituality is truly divine
Sailing the seas of thoughts uncaught
Brilliance of dark light shining forth.

A flower grows in a pot well attended
So does a weed in a gutter unplanted
Foxes and rabbits both hide in holes dry
One a coward the other valiant tough

The question unanswered remains a question
The problem solved still remains a problem
The focus of attention is divided to and fro
Brilliance of dark light still shining forth

The drunk and the pure both go under
Flowing and living in the same murky river
A life of worth or a life of gain
Anyways no one has escaped this pain

Boats or yachts they sail the same river
Some lost in it forever
True love they say is difficult to find
What about the ones you have left behind

Random thoughts flow in patterns incoherent
And settle on the lake now so stagnant
The gentle release of the soul begins
What my friend is your life's winnings

Have You Ever

have you ever looked into blank eyes
staring at the deep void
wondering whether love can heal
or the deep abyss of sadness it can steal
just for a moment bringing life

have you ever looked at something desolate
so dry and unoccupied
it would rob you of your deepest desire
your desire to dream,
maybe, even, your desire to be

have you ever loved someone
so much that you fear making them cry,
you fear that the feeling would just fade
wanting to fight against the odds
just to hold on and make it forever yours

have you ever seen pain in
someone's once pretty smile
the very joy that it would bring
now crumbling
under love's lost strain

have you ever lived a lie
been something for someone
or maybe somebody for everybody
just so that they could smile
forget their pain for a while

have you ever waited for that moment
when all you wanted
is right within your reach
to see it all just get distant again
losing grasp on what is rightfully yours

Memories

And my days are spent in memories of you
Trying to find whether my feelings were untrue
This painful slide to which my heart says stop
Wishing it was never in love with the queen of hearts

The problem arose when you said those words
With friendship things grew from mine to ours
The world was empty without you
Deepest of joys I tried my best to give you

The sails were high, and the waters were smooth
It seemed like a perfect romantic coup
Our hearts were ready, bodies still
Souls were joined in a memory that would be difficult to kill

And then the times changed, and things got carried away
Leaving us in the middle of this hideous sway
From extreme to extreme it was a momentary leap
Smiling through the dentures fixed so cheap

A new false self came into being
Breathing heavily into this relationship we bring
Defenses and excuses now became best friends
Like cheap wine and a shoddy old brothel

The touch and the soul went on a lonely spree
Leaving us alone to some fate and destiny
They say my feelings were momentary, but true
Thank you friends but honestly SCREW YOU

With tears not shed and emotions not dealt
I went about with things depending on how I felt
Tighter and tighter the noose drew around my neck
Finally to this defeat I bent.

We never liked the situation we lived
But didn't do much to better it still
In foolishness the ideas still hold fast
Honey we have lost the race at last

Polsta

With the nothing I had, I gave my all
In the smiles of the needy, I saw my own soul
Their cries of despair, was a burden I couldn't bear
So leaving my grief their problems I shared

So on and on with our lives we went
Not knowing whose sorrow we felt
In the presence of so many, our happiness knew no bounds
And buried our sorrows to the ground

Now everything in life has to come to an end
Yeah we had reached that critical bend
Never learned how to say those goodbyes
Good times – the phrase coined – time flies

The initial withdrawal was sad but to be faced
Tears and sorrows wiped out with a pretty lace
The old feelings jumped back and made themselves home
No ones happiness to follow left us all alone

Places and people couldn't bring that same old joy
The fun and the laughter felt dirty and soiled
The same old fury with the same old dreams
The same old coffee table left unclean

Wisdom and advice a lot can give
But true, pure joy very few can bring
Life's good old rule book everyone breaks
But well the hard pain that follows few can take

Sands Of The Past

Oh the joy of being young
And the foolishness that burns
The desire and the want to run wild
Screams from within unhinging from the child

Love and hate a part of the mixture
A sweet cake of trust and betrayal
The taste savoring and preparing
For the banquet which is soon coming

When the years pass by and
Time seems a distant friend
In memories of the past
Ones deepest laughter lasts

Prayers of why and where – wrongs
The deepness of destitute
Pleasant fond remembrances
In a sad state is lived

The pleasure of roaming without care
And the happiness of rides at the fair
With friends who joke about pairs
And smell the girl next doors sweet hair

Cricketers and actors all want to be
Living a life of self fulfilled dreams
In its due course life's tragedy
Overpowers those wonderful dreams

Education mostly a synonym of wasted time
A job it will get, which gives enough money to dine
Through the shit and pain and heavy boredom
Waste of what was a happier person

Theaters and cafés Become things of the past
Old teens wonder when did those pass out so fast
Gripping sand is a fool's obsession
Crying over spilled milk a wasted profession

The Dream

Last night i awoke with a start,
confused and dazed, engulfed in fear,
scared to bits reduced to tears.
About your death, love and intentions i dreamt,
a secret, a crime, hidden you've kept.

In a room flooded with hues of crimson you led,
parading me through punctured hearts dead.
I saw their anguished feelings lie still,
as i write this down my thoughts they fill.
They warn me about being another 'kill'.

You showed me your deaths and victories posed,
hanging on walls, amidst bouquets of rose.
On coming closer, this my naked eyes see,
those flowers, none roses be.
Just regular blossoms scattered with crimson seas.

I realised then what this dream meant,
T'was from the punctured hearts a warning sent.
I looked around for a way to escape,
figure out how in all this did any sense i make.
was i a victim or victor in the role i played.

And in that dream i saw
you holding on to the rope,
tugging hard, getting choked.
You didnt realize the more you pulled,
the tighter it hung around you.

But when you did realize, it was too late,
your breathing stopped, senses impaired.
Crying out for help, you looked at me,
only to notice the rope you were pulling
was in reality me.

What you didn't realize honey was this
those clues in the rooms i would not miss.
You were leading me on, like the others long gone.
So as i look u in the eyes pleading me for release,
I remember the punctured hearts beckoning me.

Those hearts at once disappear in the distance,
claiming their place in spaces of crimson.
Where regular blossoms, now true roses appeared,
all bowing to the place where your body lay covered.
Then as i said before, i awoke with a start.

The Fourth Sky

Sands of the fourth sky
Falling in a muddled frothy beach aside
Trying to find its place but gets dissolved wit time
Oh what could we do says them
Nothing, we are flowing and we have sunk deep down under
Is there a way out
No she says the tide is high
And we are flowing
Just flowing like thousands who have come and fallen and gone
Is there hope asks he
I dont think so
Not as far as i see
It's just me and the ocean and yes us waiting to be free

The Incident

A shoulder to cry is all that i need,
someone to soothe this heart that bleeds.
Friends are all now far far away,
someone help me heal from this pain.

The mountains of life i can handle,
even life's most tragic loss.
These small things wrap around me
like chains unyielding.

Where is the comfort that i seek this moment,
this loss of me, the feelings incoherent.
Gimme a pill, a remedy certain,
on this aching heart that will close a curtain.

Now these are the times i feel love's loss,
my actions arrogant, my cold hearted response.
But now i know the difference, the fine lines that separate
the brave from the arrogant proud.

This is the way they look at others pain,
their need converting into their own gain.
This is where the line they have crossed,
into the hands of pride, love has now been lost.

The Testament

Stars on a dark starry night,
Look down in pity and
Discuss mankind's plight
Look what they've done
Oh how badly they've messed up
Day in and day out
Day after day
Time and again

Look what they've made of
What God had given them
Oh the beautiful creation
Now weeps and moans
Why did you do it?
Wasn't that once enough
How hurt he was only we know
We have seen
We have felt
But how can u, yes how can u
Not feel it
You were the best
His most prized creation
In you he rejoiced and
In you he kept his pride

Oh how he rejoices
When one of you realises
The mistake of the past
He jumps and dances
He leaps and celebrates
Look there he stands
Watching and waiting
With arms open wide
Run he is there
He was always there
Now it's almost time
The promised time
When the great tribulation begins
And the bad one comes
Run he is still waiting
Run when there is time

There will be weeping and moaning
But not for us
The ones who come to him
Yes welcome to the table
The lord of hosts is here
There is a great banquet
Eat to your hearts delight
There is plenty and more
For 1 to a thousands more
Your wrongdoings are remembered no more
Be carefree and rejoice

He loves you and always did
He loved everyone who ever was
And who ever will
Just come to him and rejoice
The lord of hosts is near

We the stars have witnessed
The joy and happiness of the blessed
Oh blessed r those at the table
Come soon
Come again we say come
The time is now

The Unknown Path

When things belie
The under suspecting path
And even light cannot
Light the irrepressible dark
Yes with pride and honor
Stand i will
And make sure that light by my own
And guide my path I will
Oh that morning rays of hope
Try to blow
Us into the unknown
But yes defend I will
And defend we all
The pride we live in and this same pride in which we fall
For is it not man that rises
When things come in different
Shapes, sizes and poses
Its time to see where the light leads me
Not far and away
But somewhere there where no one knows
It's only me my pride and thought that goes

The Untitled

And I run, yes I run
Trying to catch up with the sun
I ran a long way far
I ran a long way near
I still am running
With all my brilliance and cunning
Have I reached there yet, no
I still have a long, long way to go
Everyday I get up and see
The sun is right there where it should be
But I am lost and as lonely as I can ever be
By the end of the day
I return tired, dismayed and exhausted
I tried so hard and I ran, ran this far
But all in vain absolute vain coz at the end of the day
I had just about caught up with them
But what's the point then
Its night already
The suns set and has gone from sight
I can feel it creeping behind me
Yes right there on my tail
I can feel its rising now, taunting me
Again I fall for the trap
And start running, yes again I run.

Their Mutiny

No second thought,
no lost eyes,
no love to see
no pretty disguise.
Pleading for your mercy,
pleading out your pride,
pleading in the river,
pleading for the lies.
Out goes the sunshine
my mind can see
but whats this feeling
that has come over me.

Not all is lost,
not all is won,
everything comes down,
right back to us,

Never known whats happened,
never known what will,
pace of the ages define
sacraments of rust.
Playing to the roosters
songs of the dead,
hurried sacrifices for magic relief
blankets our unbelief.
Gimme a meaning,
a source to sell,
a heart to convince
a decision unsaid.

Not all is lost,
not all is won,
everything comes down
right back to us,

Prayer of the broken
for the fine,
healing the healed
true karma refined.
Built on shallow faith
a castle filled with hate.
true love betrays,
convince me, does anything stay?
there are lies spoken,
truth covered in barbed wires,
wars fought for leftist unconcerned,
battles won for the freed.
with eyes wide shut i see
how the horns laugh with glee.

Not all is lost,
not all is won,
everything comes down
right back down to us

I watch the rays fade in the distance
feeling the lightless heat engulf me.
In the darkness, figures of hope i see.
Turns out they are here to steal
me of my life, my love and stifle
the flames of vengeance inside.
Still and helpless, i watch them breathe
with fire and lifeless apathy.
Walking away, leaving me to bleed
this is the song i hear them sing,

Not all is lost,
not all is won,
everything comes down
right back down to us

Untitled

Pain of a lifetime, death for a dime
Crying in fear of the emotional slide
Pay for your life, death sleep in a paycheck
Mystery of the tears, unknown by your own peers

Kill the bird or bury the hatchet
Choice is yours, what decision it matches
Chair and the table, both part of a fable
Made of material, which is beautifully stable.

Discount on a sale, at the thrift store
All junk ultimately flows back on the shore
Hidden cupboards on waters stay afloat
Darkest of secrets come forth

In hurried patience treasures he digs
Fills up his empty souls rigs
The hurt of worthlessness, stuck hard at my door
Patiently waiting her grief's to pour

Pebbles and diamonds, stones are they
Hard and shining but they will also fade
What remains is the constant truth of life
Guard it closer than those secrets you hide

Tarab

When i look back at the first day
of floral and brown,
you laughed and snickered
my sight repulsive you found.

We never liked each other for quiet some time,
remember, sour grapes also make fine wine.
Through those times and the better ones
we have been together, rain or sun.

But then like everything else
our attitudes changed,
a bit of probing and sharing
life as best of friends we began

As a sign of trust my card u took,
our first fight in that week place took
not talking nor looking, ignorance grand
finally our friendship won the stand

Your college hunk crush, my stupidity blush
we have been through it all.
Where our friendship will lead us, i dont know
all i know is by your side through it all i will follow

Those two years together
ever since then separated,
distance has made us stronger, Time
made us endure one another longer

We met by fates plan
and now have conquered the firmest of land.
No love or lovers strife endowed
just the best of friendship that God bestowed

Media city with 10 dirhams we went
supposedly to work and conquer,
make a name and tell the world we have arrived
now that dream aint that far, we have truly arrived

From my first adventure
to maybe my last living breath
your help, through all, has me led
even though distance once threatened death

so my friend i raise a toast
non alcoholic, of course
to our dreams, desires and ambitions enormous
to , maybe, just being Best Friends